okay.. currently at hao house doing nothing. Today actually quite suay and sian and sad also.. suay cause.. starting plan to go ECP wif raymond but too late liao.. den plan go malaysia. but raymond passport expire, den plan go swimming at jurong east. but too late.. den end up at hao house instead. but nvm.. told raymond to bring over Remy Martin.. gonna drink soon..
sian cause as above la.. nothing to do...
sad cause.. damn disspointed la.. things mention not done. disspointed wif alot of things la.. haiz..

im actually still thinking whether to quit the committee a not.. really... cause frankly speaking, this is the worst comm i work wif. sorry if i hurt some.. just my feeling from the bottom of my heart. so i rather leave den staying... some told me to bare wif it.. but how long can i tahan... i rather be normal people. wanna go skate jiu go.. dun wan go jiu dun wan.. at there relax... hong gals etc etc... really...

now im really thinking... what does a boss right hand and left hand man do... anyway... what i think is im there to assist the another hand which is higher ranking den me.. to assist him as much as possible.. but now i wondering.. everything he does, i dunno.. how do i assist him?
if what i think my job scope is wrong.. please tell me.. i really wanna know.. im in a dilemma..

okay.. anyway.. im damn stress now la... i think im going crazy soon.. so much thing happen to be tgt... hope i can overcome everything. i understand that this is part and parcel of life.. i have to face them.. i cant be an ostrich and hide my head into the floor. i hope i can pass this difficulties real soon.. so i can stand up straight again.. please please please help me...

haiz... off to drink...

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