im feeling kinda sad right now after going to a few blogs etc..
i keep asking myself why am i like tt.. i look at the mirror..
actually, i feel quite lonely. i mean very lonely. i realise i dun really have good friends that will really wanna accompany me when im feeling down. i realise those wif me are fake. sorry to hurt some but this is what i feel.

i see friend having such a nice birthday outing, such a nice oversea trips, such a nice EVERYTHING. but what do i have. i think i have none. every year, when birthday coming, i dun really feel happy, cause almost every year, i spend my birthday beri lonely, even sad. ppl LOVES it. but i hate it.. some peep love holiday cause they think yea yea, is time to have shoppin trip or oversea trips or gathering wif good friend etc. but.. i feel so lonely this season..

im not afraid or shy to tell u that my tears just come down when i write this post.. some how i just wanna post out my feeling cause i have no one to talk to.. only by typing out my feeling will make me feel better. i wanna cry out loud, i wanna shout out loud.. i really wanna to.. you might see me as a beri strong person.. not physically, but what i know is .. im actually not.. im mentally beri weak and emotional. my tears will drop if people are able to say my real feelings out.. i always try to act im strong because is not really good to show people ur tears, but end up.. my tears will eventually came out when im hiding in some corners.

I DUN WANNA BE LONELY. I DUN WANNA BE LEFT OUT.. I DUN WAN I DUN WAN.. I REALLY DUN WAN.. maybe this is fate, this is my karma.. and maybe also this is what my chara causes..

im sorry to those people i have treat u badly,
im sorry to those people i have bullied,
im sorry to those people i let you down,
im sorry.....

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